I know one thing I would change...

This is Sara. And for the sake of my mother...Sara is your daughter, we spoke about this blog on the phone. Glad you are taking an interest! My parents are supportive as hell. I am super lucky.

There is one thing for sure that I'll change knowing that I am going to live to 100. Lets start with today. I just did my budget for the next 6 months. This is what it boils down to: in 6 months I will be debt free minus student loans and my car. That is a really good thing. But in the mean time, I get to some how live on 50 to 75 dollars a week. Now, that includes food and gas etc. That IS after my bills are paid which is good. They are not joking when they say "live like a student". So my life is going to be programming, work and working out for the next 6 months. Well hooray for that.

Which brings me to the 100 year question. Okay, I have another 80 ish years left... so no bullshit at places I work. Only things that boost my skill set and the company, I hate the other crap and hate being in it. No more. Its a waste of resoureces.

And something has been sucking the fun out of me too. Maybe its just an energy thing that will be fixed through working out. But man! I am so freakin' bored most of the time. And thst is not like me...really. That must be the reason for all the books I've devoured in the last couple weeks. So energy...need energy. Need to not participate in soul-sucking activities.

Travel. Need to travel. Lots of travel. And a fast paced environment. I need a cell phone ringing off the hook, I need problems to solve quickly that involved people who can rely on those decisions. I need a sexy business suit and a show to work on. I need to hate tv again.

One of my girl friends thinks I have some research to do on another life. But she was not surprised. And thank god for this fitness challenge because working out gets out the aggression and the boredom, not to down play the happy tight rear.

I need a place that is in the north end again too, a place that I can ride home with the ladies in a skirt and heels elegantly wasted and giggling. A place for a fire pit and place to do my welding that I can't do here.


(For me, change is something that seems to boil out of me before I am really sure why I am doing it. I trust that process. Sort of like sleep walking to safety when your dreams tell you the house is going to burn down.)

So, needless to say, I am glad that Annie brought up this challenge. I think it has dug out some things that are quite lacking in my life. And believe me when I tell you that I never in my life imagined that I would ever be bored.

Food today:

A nice break fast with organic eggs, red peper, red jalepenos, tomatoes, cheese, red and yukon gold potatoes with garlic, paprika, salt and pepper. A cup of Thomas Hammer coffee (okay, more like three) with stevia for sugar substitute and some organic creamer.

For dinner I made cheese tortellini with an alfredo and marinara mix sauce with red pepper, green onions, more red jalepeos, and garlic bread. It was really great. If there is one thing that I have figured out over the last year is that home cooking and doing it well is worth it.

For exercise...just sex. Twice. Its legitimate exercise so I'll note it now and then. I am also curious how working out is going to affect my sex life. Better, no change, will I turn into a monkey? Who knows, my guess is that it will get better.

meh.